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O_O i haven't written in ages...

ello people :] well lots of things have been going on, almost impossible to start. for one, i have a myspace, so if you want, go there instead, lol. it's myspace.com/blindy_shinoda. yes i'm still obsessed with linkin park :] i also KNOW them, hehe. yupyupyup..... i don't know what to write about....

i went to europe this summer! :D yeah... before that i went to visit grant senior high for 3 weeks... strengthened my friendship with a not-so-close-friend from 9th grade named marvin... then officially started the summer as his girl :) but i hardly ever saw him, so we only lasted 3 months... but we're still good friends, so yay :]

uhh... been raising devin's two adorable twins as my own... it's been hard... but i'm proud to say i'm their parent now. i love them to death. been working as a graphic artist and now co-coach my former baseball team... umm, what else? i dunno...

i'll write tomorrow :] laters

 lol, good times :')

i joined vampire freaks!! i feel at home. isn't that sad, i need people i don't know yet to make me feel something good. oh well, i like that place.

been having problems as usual, nothing nu. johnny wrote a nu song and wants me to add to it....but it's about the free feeling drugs trick u with and what not but.....i never took drugs. that sucks doesn't it?!?!

i'm tired so i'll talk some other time.... not that u care..........if u read this comment saying hi or anything......

watch the highest would be 1!! lol. late yall.

Currently Listening Sublime By Sublime Caress Me Down see related

hi everyone. wow, again, i stopped for a long while again huh, lol. miserable as hell. things really suck for me now, as always. i thought i would be used to so much bad things but apparently i'm not.

shorty is a father now. a good, proud father. michael was born in the last week of july 05. has full custody of him. i'm so proud of him, he loves him so much. yeah, he was an idiot for getting the bitch pregnant, and for being 17, holding out way longer than most guys though, it really pissed me off, but what am i gonna do? i can't like erase him from my life or something. actually, he will be possibly taken away. he's in a coma right now. mikey woke up today, he was in one too. he woke so scared and within seconds started to cry like crazy, but even the crying was like the best thing for me at that moment, i was so happy, i was crying like mad, they are going to keep him for two or three days more then i'm gonna be taking care of him, that's right i am. all i need now is for shorty to wake up. his fuckin parents had kept me from seeing him and the baby. started yelling at me that it was all my fault, cuz he was in an accident, he was going to my school, turning left when a huge moving van comes from the right and hits them. he was unconscious when the people who got out to help started to get him out. some guy pulled mikey out, he wasn't like shorty, but like him he fell into the coma a few hours later. i left without arguing, i just left, but three days later i went back and with a lawyer. took them to court. too much things to explain in order for u people to understand- how we won. no way in hell i wasn't going to be allowed not to see him. first off, they have no right cuz THEY kicked him out of the house when they found out about mikey, and I took him into my home. and they tell me to get out of his life? now they can only visit the hospital one hour a day, more than an hour and jail time for them.

granada hills charter high school is the shittiest school on earth. i HATE that school. i want to burn it to the ground, I HATE IT!!!!!!!! i'm abused every damn day, why? cuz i'm from grant. yup. it's not even about race anymore it's about schools now, what the fuck is happening to our pathetic human race???

i'm so lonely! i'm getting sicker everyday that passes. that's bad. i'm so bloody depressed, and i can't have razors and knives near me anymore, i get tempted. i miss grant so much, i would do anything to go back. i miss my friends there, and coach ellison and mrs. wallick. i have no friends here just one who can be considered one, not that much connection between us so....yup.

i wrote my first five songs ever with johnny, and they're not that happy sounding. never really were but this is lke brutal compared to the past songs i wrote with devin. and i hate october, november, and december now, they are my worst months, everything went crashing down in them last year. everything. what's keeping me going? this:

"G-D will not burden you with more than you can handle" by somewhat those words. i'm not sure what religion i am, but this actually keeps me smiling and hoping. thanks coach ellison.

Holy shit, i'm back on xanga!! hey u miserable people, been a long time. damn, so much has happened, don't know what to say. to begin with, i now go to granada high. shitty school, i was dragged away from grant. but i'll always be a lancer. i'm on myspace now, i use the same username. hehe, it's not that bad, really. well, on with the crap!

i am in northridge right now, bored out of my guts, things have changed a lot. lost many friends, have a nu one at school, had to leave behind many at grant, including coach ellison, i  miss him so much, he was such a great friend. umm, went to grant on friday, stayed with coach, saw aaron and marvin, tommy fuckin ignored me, went to lorena's with yaz, saw rosa too. man i miss grant. my band has been doing good, we got a nu frontman, johnny. hated him at first but now we're cool, no problems with him. the bitch who had raped devin (jose) lied to us, said she aborted the kid when she really didn't, as a matter of fact, had twins. sweetest angels i've ever known, devin ellison diaz and ida marie diaz. had to go to court to get them, send that bitch to prison. my coach (coach joe) adopted them, they are just like devin. been having problems with my coach though, i'm so bummed, we argue about stupid things now, i hate it all. i'm so sick of the tension and of fighting. shorty caught his girlfriend in bed with another guy the day before their anniversary, he's been down, i miss his crazy self.

well, i got rid of my abusive boyfriend, that fucker will never step foot in my life again. all thanks to shorty, saved my life. shorty also saved my life before this, he got me a great friend. it was him who asked coach to keep an eye on me, help me with my problems. he and coach were the best help ever. it's so weird, coach looks just like devin only older of course and doesn't look so rebelious. teeheehee. same eyes too. i miss devin, still not used to life without him. well, that's it for now. tired as hell. bye.